Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Ordinary



In this void and darkness
I am trying to find some light 
But all I can see is darkness
Filled with blurred unfulfilled dreams

The time is just flipping away
Like sand from the fist
And I am here 
Standing in no man's land in desperation
Achieved nothing reached nowhere

Scared of becoming just another regular woman
Cooking, eating, shopping and sleeping
Though I have not been able to become a regular one yet
I am not even ordinary to be extra ordinary

MEMORY LANE




Revisiting the memory lane
Terribly missing my childhood lane…

Never knew time will fly by
Leaving me wondering why
It was a different world
Full of happiness around

The memories are very vivid
In my heart and mind
The streets with Amaltas and Gulmohar tree
All the neighbours knew me

That's the place I learnt to ride bicycle and scooty
That's the place I learnt to enjoy rain and natural beauty
That's the place I learnt to tie my shoe laces
That’s the place I learn to find hiding places

Imagining figure in cloud was most enjoying
Playing with my cats was most satisfying
Nostalgic is what I feel here
Imagining what all I left here

Revisiting the memory lane
Terribly missing my childhood lane…















Monday, May 6, 2013

VOID

9th July’ 2012

When one door closes many other opens! I have heard this many times, but this time it's not just a door, it is much more than that.

I don’t remember the exact date or time when I met him but  gradually we developed a great relationship. We were neither friends nor relatives. We just had great teacher-student, student-teacher relationship. He always considered me as her daughter. Two common chords between us was- one we belong to the same state and second we followed same religion. I cannot get enough words to pen down about our rapo. On one hand, he used to appreciate me for my work and on other hand he used to scold me for my laziness.

I will always remember and cherish those afternoon sessions in the library where we used to sit and chat for hours. We used to discuss about students, friends and acquaintance which we had so much in common. And I always wonder how selflessly he thinks about everyone. How selfless a person can be?

Today, he is not with me and his loss has created a huge void, an emptiness. He is just irreplaceable. Athar Sir, you are missed, I needed you. You were my inspiration, my guide and my teacher.

It took me 2 days to gather the courage to write about this huge loss. While walking across the road, I still think may be one fine day you will come up and ask me- “Net Qualify karo Maryam, kab tak corporate world ke janjal me phasi rahogi? Utilize your talent.”